You are not alone, one in five mothers and one in ten fathers experience PND. Don’t forget we are not taught how to be mothers; it is something we need to learn for ourselves and at this time of our lives we sometimes need to be mothered ourselves.
I never believed in the word depression, let alone postnatal depression, how could anyone possibly be depressed after having a baby I wondered? I was 24 and happily married, we both very much wanted a family and I found out I was expecting my first child in July 1983. At ten weeks I started to miscarry...
Pregnancy - I’d had an easy first and second trimester but then started to develop pre eclampsia for which I was hospitalised several times before the birth. The last trimester was not so easy; I had to go into hospital three times a week for blood pressure checks. At a 37 week check, I was not allowed to go home...
I was so well in pregnancy, as fit as I have ever been. My labour was easy and at home, just as I had wished. During pregnancy I worried about something going wrong with the health of the baby or during the birth but my mental health just didn’t feature at all. I felt overjoyed when my Persy arrived safely and all his checks were normal.
I had a happy marriage, we had a lovely home and now we had a beautiful baby daughter. Life couldn't get any better. I had very high expectations of motherhood. I thought I would be a natural. An ever doting mother who would do absolutely anything for her child...
I returned to work after three days and left Fiona alone to get on with being a full time mum. I don’t think anybody likes to accept that they are wrong but I in this case I will hold my hands up to being so very wrong. I assumed that being a full time mum was a cavalcade of coffee mornings and play groups, how hard is that?...